Thank you for replying April. Sometimes we need an objective view on our thoughts and feelings. Unfortunately for me, my freinds have voiced their opinion and I cannot lean on them. You are correct, I do need to focus on what I want in a relationship and she’s close. I am a realist and I know everyone has a history, but I also don’t think any man wants to think of the woman they are involved with as a mutual friends go-to booty call for years. And, the only reason she told me was because she thought I would find out from someone else. I’m not boasting my morality, but I what if she slept with whatever guy was at the bar every time she got horny. She did snag me outta there and sleep with me the first time she got me in her house. Was I a potential booty call who she just ended up liking? Or does that even matter?? I mean… If I like her, who cares? I did jump in the sack with her just as quickly. I like about 90% of who and how she is. Is it possible to find 100%? We have a lot of common activities and hobbies. I am white collar, but not typical. Most of my life I have been a blue collar, hard working… broke man. I learned a ton being broke, I’m very self sufficient and a jack of all trades. I eventually worked my way out of that, but it’s still my personality… four wheelin’, camping, golfing, boating, drinking, playing pool. I want someone to share those activities with me as she does.. we have fun together! She’s just been a bartender so long that it’s hard to talk to her about anything with real meaning, and that bothers me in my long term thoughts. Could that change over time if she has someone with a half a brain to talk to ? She is perceptive and had stong common sense. I’m not looking for marriage, at least not anytime soon… thats been explained. But I am interested in a monogamous relationship that has potential. Should I keep looking?
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