Hi April,
Thanks for your reply 🙂 What I meant by moving too fast is mostly the way we were around eachother so early on. We were already holding hands by the second date, doing couple things like snuggling during movies, etc. I even stayed over at his place (at his request) and though things didn’t progress physically, we had some very deep talks and we told eachother things that I wouldn’t expect until months down the road in a relationship. I know the parents thing was a big mistake and I regretted it almost immediately, but he was also the one initiating making plans in the future (up to a month in advance), and though he apologized for it later, at the time it lead me to believe we were BOTH comfortable moving fast when that clearly wasn’t the case and it freaked him out.
The only relationships I’ve ever had were in university, and I’m finding dating in the ‘real world’ tough to navigate. In university, you see eachother all the time and things move fast because that’s the atmosphere. Now that I’m trying to date someone who has a life I know nothing about, I honestly feel like I don’t know what to do which scares me. And it scares me even more that he does. I keep feeling like us having a connection so early on means something more, but maybe I’m reading too much into it and putting too much pressure on myself when we should be having fun at this stage. I guess I just want to start over with him but I know that I can’t, so I’m trying to find a way to backtrack a little bit to hopefully put us on a slower, healthier path towards a (possible) relationship in the future.