We actually dated for awhile (two months), but hooked back up off & on. Before finding out about her engagement, I checked up on her through twitter, instagram, etc. I think finding out about her engagement, just rushed back those past feelings I had for her, & now with her engagement, that “romantic” door has now been officially shut. Again, I’ve NEVER felt this way about any other young lady. Not trying to do much “self-diagnosing”, but I believe since I invested so much emotionally into her, & honestly thought at one time, she was “THE ONE”, that I feel like I lost apart of me, that I can’t get back. Also, that I should be the one in those photos with her, but she looks happy, & maybe it wasn’t meant to be.
Also knowing that she is going to look beautiful on her wedding day, doesn’t help my mind either. It’s just a tough pill to swallow, & this isn’t the movies where the guy runs to the woman tells her his feelings, & they ride off into the sunset. Real life doesn’t play out like that, & I respect that she’s someone’s fiancee now. I may be worried about finding “love” again, & she’s getting married, & I’m worried I won’t find that “special” someone myself.
