Thank you for replying so quickly, I have met with Ramy many times other than just the one time. We have spent weeks together here n there throughout the years and each time has been completely wonderful. I know what the right thing to do is, as you mentioned try working things out with my childrens father and I have to say I have tried and I still cant get Ramy out of my head. I’ve tried breaking contact with him and so far i have only made it a 2 month stretch. I start off strong but i eventually think about him again more n more. I hate that this is happening for my children. I feel like it is out of my control and if I do not follow my heart I will never be completely happy. Is it okay? I feel awful for my children going through this but i dont know if its worth me shutting down and settling with their father when I know my heart is somewhere else. I will live 6 hours away and be able to remain a stay at home mother and have the means to travel back home for visits often. I really wish he could relocate rather than I but it is not possible. He is a NY Sheriff and relocating is not possible at this time. He mentioned to me that we can move back to Ohio once transferring becomes available to him. Clearly my heart has made a decision. With this said comes another issue. How do I get through this while remaining civil and polite with Jeff? He is an amazing father and I don’t want to dislike him.
