[Jer]

Hello April,
I decided to have the closure with her, decided to let her know I’ll accept reality and part away with her in good terms. I asked if we could talk over the phone or if I could meet so i could say goodbye. She said she doesn’t want to hear anything about us. I promised her I am not going to burden her, I just wanted to say goodbye and wish her the best. She asked me to say it over in texts, So while i was typing it out. She went on to say,[i] “I wont be bothered to read it if it is too long, Just so you know”. [/i] I couldn’t understand why shy wont have the decency to even let me say goodbye.

I was deeply hurt at this point, thinking about all the times I gave up on my games, friends, tv shows, work, and family cause she wanted a quality time with me. And i was happy she was happy, but she wont give me one last goodbye, she was that busy that she cant even hear me out… I decided its not worth it and just told her, “We had what most ppl never find in life, and i just wanted to say thank you for showing me love, i wish you the best in life”… so just then she said she doesn’t care to know what i have to say as she doesn’t have any feelings for me anymore.

I asked her not to hurt me with her words. I could have been happy knowing I had a good 2 and half years of love but she has to go on and say it was never love April?

1) How could some people hurt you so much when they promised you a lot of happiness and you did nothing to hurt them. These are the people you thought you could trust your life with.
2) We blocked each other now, no more contacts But, Although I know she doesn’t love me anymore or never did, I still want her to know i am hurt, that i miss her and love her. Is this feeling normal? How can I move past this? This is like standing in front of an artwork and waiting for its love.

~ Jer

[Jer]

I do take commitments seriously, for what is love if you don’t put your happiness above the other person’s happiness? Which is also why I have not spammed her phone or called her. I’ve respected her wish and kept my distance. But she is doing what most ex’s do. She sends a message, I reply, then she ignores it for a week. Sends one more message, gets my reply then ignores it. I wait here for a response with a little bit of hope… Only to be in tears and disappointment. I just received one more text asking if i was doing okay and sharing her new job details that she Got.

Should I take this as her way of trying to mend things with me? Is she trying to come back? Cause I know her pride is too big, she has a very big ego. She seldom says sorry or takes the first step to apologize when she knows she’s done something wrong. It has always been me that picks up on her cues and takes the initiative to invite her to mend things. This is her third message since the break up. I responded to the first two, kept my replies to the point. But I haven’t responded to this one yet.

I do not want to be friends with her, It will ruin my future. Should I continue these text games? Is there something good I can salvage out of what is left and build a relationship on it? Thank you once again

Jer.

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