I have always been the kind of person in all of my hookups who could have sex without emotional attachment and I cant really figure out why I like him so much because I am African American and so is he and i have never been attracted physically or otherwise to any men of my same race, I prefer men of other races and have never been in love with any of them either, I have never loved anyone and it may be lust that I feel for him. The few I have slept with I really didnt care for in the end.I always thought emotions were for weak minded people, something unnecessary.I have been stressed for a few months over wanting to have more time with him. I have a high sex drive and if he cant be there when I need it, I WILL continue to seek for someone who is available to satisfy me more often. ❗ The sex we have is fantastic I am wrong to do what i am doing, I accepted the fact that he sees other people I CAN see him without getting crazy on him,even if he flirts in my face because I would like the sex if nothing elese, I do like my freedom and I just want him around if he can only be there for sex.I just want him to be with me if only on that level and I want him to accept that I will and do sleep with others just like he does. Why does he really care who I’m with when I dont care who he is with when he isnt with me?
