Dear April,

My ex gf and I went out for 6 years before finally breaking up in Feb. We usually would break up and get back together after two-three days but this time we both were unhappy for good and decided finally to move on. Let me give you the quick back story about our relationship. We met in college in our junior year. She flirted with me but I resisted one night and went with someone else. About a month later I called her and asked her to go on a date and said “yes, maybe, idk”. She said call her the next day and she’ll let me know. The next day I called her and she came to my dorm. We connected right away and kissed that night. The next week was valentines and I had one of my frat brothers bring her flowers and card to her dorm saying be mine. She was and she came over that night and we went to 2nd base that night. We kept hanging out and week after vday we had sex. It was incredible and when I asked her to be my gf she cried she was so happy. We both went to school in north jersey and lived in south jersey so during spring break we hung out all week. It was fun and amazing. We came back and that is when problems began. She was in a sorority and went out allot apparently my frat brothers told me one night she was holding hands with another guy and kissed him. When I confronted her she said no. We still continued and when went to her formal dance together and again she was dancing with other guys and kissed the cheek of the other guy. I let it go but decided to ask someone else to my formal about two weeks later. It was then I broke up with her for the first time and she cried, cried, and cried. Finally, I said its okay I will go back with you and I took her to my formal and we had a great time. The other girl was mad at me but it didn’t matter I loved my ex gf. We said to each other we love each other after a month. In late spring while I was home she went to a Greek picnic and called me all day. When I got back my friends were telling me she hooked up with someone else. I didn’t know who to believe. Again we broke up and she cried in her dorm for 2 days. Again I said let’s get back together. When we went back home in the summer I stayed at school three days a week for summer school. She was perfectly fine and no problems whatsoever. Then I met this girl Amanda and we hung out once and I hooked up with her. Then I got two other girls numbers but felt guilty and didn’t pull the trigger. Then there was a girl that came over to the frat house I was staying at in the summer and she wanted me bad and I turned it down. In the mean time I would break up with my ex gf every 2 weeks. I was angry about her cheating and yet I was getting revenge on her. The next year we still were together but one night I got so mad at her I insulted her by calling her trailer trash, hore, skank, you live in a shack, etc. She hit me in the face for all the insults. During the winter I was still seeing Amanda and my ex gf. Then I met another girl KC and she I were now bf gf and my ex was my side piece. I would say kc then go to see my ex for sex. I used her for sex for 4 weeks. Our relationship continued and once I caught her texting another guy but at the time I was seeing someone else. In fact all together I saw 12 different girls while I was with my ex and has sex with 5 of them. We had a lot of fun times and nice sex so I think that is why we stuck together for so long. Finally last march we went to a wedding together at the time I was seeing someone else named Michelle and I was so upset with my ex that I left her at the wedding and said have a nice life she punched me in the head twice. Yet we still saw each other after. In April things were back to normal we were still seeing each other full on. Then Memorial Day weekend I told my ex gf I was going to Florida to see my sick uncle. I wasn’t I was down the shore at my shore house with that girl Michelle. When I came home and dropped off Michelle my ex was with her friend and she drove by my shore house and saw my mom outside and asked her how come you’re not in Florida? She came all the way to my apt and yelled at me but still had sex with me. We continued to see each other months after and she moved to Philly. She always wanted to move in with me and marry me but I lead her on to make it believe I did but I really didn’t. So when we finally broke up in Feb she stopped talking to me and I tried calling her two weeks later but it didn’t work. Apparently she moved on to someone else. I told her about all the girls I saw behind her back and she was furious and said if u calls me again I’ll get a restraining order. Then she told me she was in love with someone else and was happy. This was in early April. I didn’t call email or text her for 2 months. I changed my phone number and turned my phone off for a month and half. Finally on June 7 she emailed me saying can we talk. I called her on June 11 and we talked for about 30 minutes. We said goodbye but she wanted to remain friends. I emailed her the next day and said I couldn’t do that it was too hard and then I told her good luck and I m happy that you are happy. I then dropped off her clothes she had remaining to her mom and that was that. After last night when I checked my email and two weeks ago she sent me an email saying she wasn’t happy and she was upset I changed my number again. So I called her last night and we talked for two hours and it was positive talk she has a bf and is happy and I finally got some closure. I emailed her today saying this is my number I’m not changing it and you can always call me if u need me I always be your friend. At 6 pm today she called me and said she misses me. I said I miss her too and I called her later after my soccer game and we said more stuff that we miss each other but she didn’t ask me to hangout and I felt funny saying it to her so we said to each other good night and hung-up. Now I don’t know what to do? Wait for her to call? Move on for good? I am seeing someone now and she has a bf but if she said meet up I would but I don’t want to make that first move? Can you help me please?