April,
I am at a relationship crossroads right now, and I’d love to hear your input before I step out onto the tracks. I met my first (and only) love as a sophomore in high school. We dated for about a year, and in that time we rarely left one another’s side. The connection, understanding, attraction, and love that we felt for each other was powerful and steadfast. Unfortunately, the relationship came to an abrupt end when I was forced to move out of state. As I left Arizona, I’ll honestly admit that I cried like an 8-year-old girl……….not because I feared the move, but because I knew I would be incomplete without the girl that I loved.
Fast forward………… I’m 22 years old now. Although I’ve grown, matured, and been tossed around my fair-share of relationships, my first love remains my only. We’ve talked on the phone nearly everyday for the past six years and have visited one another on several occassions. The “L-word” still gets thrown around from time to time, and I think it’s sincere. Nonetheless, our relationship isn’t by any means exclusive considering that we live 8 hours apart and are both comitted to our college endeavors and our current locations. I would love for things to be like they used to, and I try to convince myself that someday they will. I know that I can’t just sit back and wait for it to happen either.
So, that’s where I stand now. Do I take action to ensure that the woman I care so deeply about doesn’t slip away? Do I just sit back and cross my fingers in hope? Or, do I suck it up, and somehow try to forget?
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