I’m Amy. I’m in love with a married man. We have a kid out of wedlock. When his wife caught him he went away. He kept he never needed me and said I spoiled his life. (I confess I did, as I thought he deserved to be treated that way for going away for no fault of mine, without even providing for our child… but that’s another long story) That was 5 years back. Now he’s back saying he never hated me. And being an idiot I fell for him again when he said he still loved me because I always loved him just the same.We got together again. First time we met he was loving and gentle and I enjoyed spending time with him. But the second time he was a bit rough and said he would never forgive me for what I did to him years back. He said he finds me so good and so bad too. And even though he said he’d come back the next day, he didn’t, saying he was feeling mentally tired.
I don’t understand what he means by being “mentally tired “. I said I’m excusing myself out of his life. And he said I need not take such a harsh decision, that nothing has changed, that he will meet me again soon. I kept silent. But after a week I texted him asking how he was, he replied he’s fine and asked how I am. I replied I’m ok even though I feel very hurt again. And knowing myself I would accept him again if he’s to come back. I pine for his love and attention. There’s nothing in this world I want more, than his love. I feel so torn inside. I want to reach out to him again and have him back in my life. I don’t know whether he cares for me or whether he hates me. I really don’t know what to do.
Please advise me April.
Love,
Amy
