I am a college students who has a close guy friend. Recently, I realize that I have developed some feelings for him. It’s cliche, I know.
He chats with me every day through IM without fail after class until we fall asleep and he always tells me whenever he is late and having some troubles. He often asks for my opinion regarding many things. He once asked me to buy him an expensive thing with his money and let me to choose the model. When he went to for holiday, he chats with me everyday despite the fact that I’ve asked him to stop chatting and enjoy his holiday. I didn’t ask him about his whereabouts and he told me voluntarily. He also told 2 others about his holiday trip but only because they asked about what he was going to do during the holiday. I never asked, yet he told me. He often plays with my hair, pokes me, teases me, whispers my name without any reason during the lecture and he’s always ready to help me. He told me some secrets and I am the only person who shares his secrets. Sometimes, I feel that he likes me too.
However (here’s the tricky part), he has a lot of girl best friends. He also often says that other girls are pretty, but he never told me so. He also chats a lot with other girls in my class and he tells me that he doesn’t want a girlfriend from the same major and he’s not interested in any of his classmates. Everyday when he holds my hand and tease me playfully, I can feel my heart beats faster yet soon after that, I feel a pain in my chest since I have to tell myself that we’re just friend. What should I do? I am trying to ignore this feeling but it’s getting more and more difficult to do so since I meet him almost everyday.
