I am currently in process of divorce which was a long time coming. A year and a half ago I hooked up online with an old friend that was just starting to go through a divorce but lives 4 hours away in another state. We knew each other 17 years ago and had a ton of chemistry but never even kissed. After talking for a few months we decided to meet and sparks flew. We began having an affair and she was madly in love with me but I was undecided at the time if I could leave my current situation. After a few months of this she said she just couldn’t do this anymore because it hurt too much not to have me. That lasted 2 days and she could not stay away. After a few more months I began to be distant and eventually separated myself from her. Basically I broke her heart. After 4 months I realized I made a huge mistake and missed her horribly. I re-connected and we picked up where we left off. Only this time she was now out of her house and further along in the divorce process. But really the big difference was I knew I wanted a divorce too now and allowed myself to be head over heels for her. She had attained a great deal of personal growth and was not as dependant on me this time but still loved me deeply. The big problem is she has 2 kids and does not go to court until January 2013 to see if she can come home. We started getting very close and I also was getting close with her family and kids. A month ago she said she needed space and time and her gut was to NOT be in a relationship right now. It hurt me but I totally supported her decision and understand. If she cannot come home it is not feasable to have a 10 year long-distance relationship; as I have a young child as well. I have stayed in some contact via email but honestly it is so hard. I am really brokenhearted. We were telling each other how we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together and then this. So my question really is do I keep in contact by maybe just saying Hi once in a while or do I put distance between us totally and let her figure things out? Again, if she can come home we probably would have a future, but if not we would have just kept getting closer and if she can’t come home it would have hurt even more in January. My gut says to stop all communication with her. But I dont want her to think I have forgotten about her.
