I’ll try to keep this brief as I know I could probably write about it forever.
First off I am a very late bloomer (23) until now I never had the courage to approach women or even consider they would find me attractive. I have pretty severe social anxiety and chronic depression that is probably caused by my isolation.
About 4 months ago I got fed up with the way my life was going and I asked an extremely attractive woman who is sometimes in my office maybe once every three months to go to lunch with me. I was surprised first at how easily I had done it, being alone for so long had made me build up asking someone out into this daunting and impossible task. We actually hit it off we are both quiet and complemented each other really well. For my first relationship I think I did really well considering.
After about a month of dating we went on a road trip and ended up getting a hotel on the way back. I’m embarrased to say this but I was extremely nervous as it was my first time with a woman, and being alone I had developed a bit of a pornography addiction so I wasnt able to perform due to ed. I made sure that she was taken care of but she could have been faking for all I know. After that she took a long time to reply to my texts and when I saw her next she said she wanted to stop seeing me.
From the beginning she was concerned about our age difference, her being 10 years older than me. But it never seemed like a problem to me. That’s the reason she used when she broke it off, and actually said she thought she was falling in love with me while she did.
Fast forward to now… I have a pretty limited dating pool and havent met anyone I’ve wanted to ask out. I started online dating in the last week, but havent managed to get a date with anyone yet despite sending out maybe 40 emails all with personalized messages. While I was randomly browsing through matches I stumbled onto her profile and decided to message her hello cauuse I would have felt weird not doing so. Her messages back to me basically went along the lines of my message to her had made her very happy, she misses me, and wishes she was younger so she could be with me. I havent really stopped thinking about her either since we split. Aside from my failure in the bedroom and our age difference everything else was pretty much perfect. Am I reading too much into these new messages? I’ve always been fairly mature and some of the girls my age still seem too immature for me. Our last messages on the dating site were a couple days ago but I can see that she has visited my profile again in the days since. I’m considering trying to contact her again and see if the age difference is really still an issue for her or not. Or am I just being naieve? Sorry could just really use an outside opinion on this.
