Hi, I’m Kiel. I have had a girlfriend for 6 years and we are both 26 years old. We have been very happy together and she always made me feel how important I was to her. Throughout those 6 years, we never broke up even once.
However, lately, we started arguing more often over small things. One night, while we were not on good terms, I had a dream about the greatest love of my life, my one and only ex-girlfriend. In that dream, I could clearly see how happy we were together and how big her smile was.
After that dream, I found myself missing the care and affection she used to give me. At the same time, I knew that I still loved my girlfriend. But because these thoughts kept growing in my mind, I even considered reaching out to my ex.
I decided to break up with my girlfriend because I felt it would be unfair to stay with her while thinking about someone else. I knew it could eventually lead to emotional cheating and I did not want to lie to her or to myself about how I was feeling.
Now, my ex and I have started talking again and are slowly getting closer. However, I cannot stop thinking about the pain I caused my former girlfriend. I feel guilty, confused, and torn between my feelings. Part of me wonders if I followed my heart, while another part of me wonders if I made a huge mistake.
I do not understand myself anymore. Should I continue pursuing my ex, or did I make a mistake by leaving my girlfriend of 6 years?
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