[Lonely_Girl]

I understand that, but is there a way to tell by his body language whether he’s interested? I’m going by the signals he’s giving off. From my perspective, his avoiding making eye contact with me indicated disinterest. I wouldn’t approach him if that were the case. 😉

[Lonely_Girl]

I like your advice, April, and thanks! All I have left to say is that I’ve been through counseling already, and it’s still difficult to deal with this. People give me weird stares all the time. It’s very difficult to walk around with my head held high and without fearing that someone will give me weird look because I always encounter someone who will do that.

Another note, well I saw him again last night and noticed that he’s trying really hard to avoid looking at me altogether. He’ll give me a glance here and there but not much. I sat closer to the stage and almost in front of him this time just to see if we could connect somehow being that the last time we made eye contact I didn’t even so much as smile. Now he’s even positioning his body away from my direction. So now I wonder if he’s repulsed by the way I look because of the scar or if he finds me annoying? I wanted to see if I could approach him somehow when he’s off stage but I don’t know anymore. I’m trying not to even notice him but it’s hard to do that when he’s front and center on the stage. I mean, where else am I going to look? That’s how I noticed him in the first place! So, now I’m not sure I can try to talk to him since he seems to be trying really hard to avoid me. Since I like this church a lot, I’ve decided to not stop going just because of this one guy. It’s hard to find a church that totally accepts everyone. Plus so many people go there that no one notices when I am there LOL (well except for this guitar player haha). All of this guessing back and forth makes me want to give up entirely on love forever! 😕

[Lonely_Girl]

Thanks for replying! That sounds good, but see I have big problem. See, I actually have a facial scar. It’s not big, not a gash, and it’s on the peripheral of my face but it’s still noticeable from up close. I usually wear makeup but even then you can still see it because of its shape. That’s why I haven’t bothered to approach him or something. I’m so scared that once he sees the scar, I’ll scare him away. This actually depresses me. Because I’m too scared of taking a chance out of fear of how he will judge/perceive me due to the scar but then again, I don’t know whether he’ll be more accepting and actually turn out to be the love of my life. What would you do?

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