[tnkerbell]

i am tired of always being rejected april by my boyfriend…
he always tells me that he’s a hunter and he likes to chase his prey and does not like easy things. Everytime i try to iniate sex or anything sexual he doesnt want to, hes not in the mood. I have told him that i dont like feeling rejected and that it makes me feel like im not attractive enough. He just replies by telling me that thats not the case and that he thinks i am hot. But that i,m always on top of it and that he needs to feel the need to chase me and that he doesnt like easy things. That we first started dating he said i wasnt easy hence he always wanted to have sex with me. Yesterday i went ahead and serviced myself and he walked in on me. Today i told him how i felt and he told me that yesterday he wanted to but that i had already serviced myself and that he has dreams about having sex with me but that i need to relax and back off. I dont understand we are in a relationship sex should not be in issue. So from now on i am not going after him anymore so he goes after me. and when he wants to have sex i am going to reject him so he knows how it feels.

[tnkerbell]

Another thing is that he was married he is finally getting divorced because now is when he has the money for it he got separated about 2 years ago when we started dating. FYI I was not the reason. Anyways I find myself being extremely jealous. Being younger than him I have dates guys who have either never had a girlfriend other than me or were virgins. I get so jealous of the thought of him being with another woman. It’s like I torture myself. I’ve found old pictures of them together around the house obviously hidden away because they did live there for 4 years and letters and trinkets I’ve either thrown them out or told him too. They use to text eachother back and fourth to I guess end on good terms and discuss things when they had first separetad and then according to him he told her to stop texting him and instead email him. They would email eachother about closing their savings account and her nagging about how she misses the dogs and he would tell her coldly that perhaps she should get other dogs. Anyways according to him she has not emailed him anymore FYI she has a boyfriend. Anyways the point is.. I get jealous and I’m dreading the day of the divorce at court because I don’t even want him to see her. I’m Insecure about it I guess. They have been together for like 10 years they have history. I know he’s with me and we live together and he loves me. But I guess deep down I’m afraid. And it’s ridiculous because we are serious and we have talked about the future and buying a house and we even remodeled the house we live in now because god knows that house was horribly decorated before I got there.. He’s said it himself that I inspired him to paint the house and decorate it and etc.. So if all the signs are there that I shouldn’t be insecure or jealous why do I still feel it. We have had fights about this before.

[tnkerbell]

Another thing is that he was married he is finally getting divorced because now is when he has the money for it he got separated about 2 years ago when we started dating. FYI I was not the reason. Anyways I find myself being extremely jealous. Being younger than him I have dates guys who have either never had a girlfriend other than me or were virgins. I get so jealous of the thought of him being with another woman. It’s like I torture myself. I’ve found old pictures of them together around the house obviously hidden away because they did live there for 4 years and letters and trinkets I’ve either thrown them out or told him too. They use to text eachother back and fourth to I guess end on good terms and discuss things when they had first separetad and then according to him he told her to stop texting him and instead email him. They would email eachother about closing their savings account and her nagging about how she misses the dogs and he would tell her coldly that perhaps she should get other dogs. Anyways according to him she has not emailed him anymore FYI she has a boyfriend. Anyways the point is.. I get jealous and I’m dreading the day of the divorce at court because I don’t even want him to see her. I’m Insecure about it I guess. They have been together for like 10 years they have history. I know he’s with me and we live together and he loves me. But I guess deep down I’m afraid. And it’s ridiculous because we are serious and we have talked about the future and buying a house and we even remodeled the house we live in now because god knows that house was horribly decorated before I got there.. He’s said it himself that I inspired him to paint the house and decorate it and etc.. So if all the signs are there that I shouldn’t be insecure or jealous why do I still feel it. We have had fights about this before.

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