Well despite your advice I continued staying in contact with her for a while and even stopping by to see her at the restaurant she works at. But it was bumming me out way too much and I finally decided to make a change while talking to her one day. She said some things that really made me mad and I told her we need to stop talking to each other. She was very angry at me for saying that and asking me why I would ditch her as a “friend” just because she wouldn’t date me. I can only guess that she wanted to stay in contact with me because of how nice and complimentive I am to her. But I couldn’t take feeling heart broken anymore. I deleted her number from my phone and I unfriended her from my Facebook to make sure I’ll never be tempted to contact her again. I have been very sad about it for the past week. But, the longer I go not talking to her the more my infatuation with her starts to disappear. And I’ve started remembering all the messed up, mean things she occasionally has done or said to me, that really would hurt my feelings, that I would let slide because I liked her so much. Such as picking me up on a cold snowy winter night to go to a party with her and then making me walk home in the cold. I’ve started recalling all the bad advice she always seems to be giving me like trying to convince me to stop taking my anti-depression medicine and avoid doctors who are actually helping me. The longer I’ve gone without contact with that girl the more I realize how terribly she treated me with no respect and what a bad influence she’s been to me. I’m starting to feel very glad she is not in my life anymore and I realize that I deserve to be treated better than that. I shouldn’t let a girl treat me badly just because I think she’s pretty or cool. In fact being single is really not all that bad. Haha I’ve been hanging out with my friends again more and I feel in a much better mood lately I think. I’m not sure why I felt like I needed her in my life or why I was so scared to break contact with her. Next time I meet a girl I like I think this experience will have taught me some things to keep in mind. Thanks again.
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