Well, the breakup was due to having too many differences that eventually turned to being really detached from each other. The respect was gone, and the desire to even be around each other disappeared as well. There was no fun, only routines.. and different desires. I think that an individual can’t really progress in life when they allow someone else to hold them back, something like a bagage. He lied many times, and cheated on me as well. Deep down I always knew that he never really wanted to settle down, he is only 32 years old… So young and the people he surrounds himself with, aren’t the type I want to ever be around, they are stuck in a circle and so is he. I just like the sex we have and I don’t know whether to feel guilty because of it. I said in my first post that we have been seeing each other for a month now and I am noticing he still hasn’t changed, I can’t go out late at night during the week except for weekends because I have a responsibility as a mother. As for him, he goes out and is out right about now. He doesn’t have any children or has ever been married, and I don’t think he is ready at all to settle down with anyone. I used to think that there was something wrong with me which led me to being insecure but then realized that it’s not really me, it’s him not being ready to take that next step, or even the first one towards having a committed relationship with someone. You said something that stood out, and you are right. I don’t have to necessarily think about giving my son a stable family with a man by our side. I can give him the same stable family as single parent. As a woman, I do believe and know that we do have the ability to be happy on our own. I am not going after him anymore just to get an answer about whether or not he wants to commit. He is a man and if he wanted to, he would definitely make sure he made it happen. I’m not saying I won’t be seeing him anymore, I do like the sexual relationship we have.. but this time, I will just be realistic and not have any expectations. I know that my Mr. Right is somewhere out there and he will find me one day 🙂
