Hey there,
I’m going to give my two-cents as best I can. I just had a baby 4mo ago with my best friend turned boyfriend turned fiancé. To say we’ve had our problems is an understatement. While I was pregnant I almost decided to not let him see our daughter at all and looking back I realize it was mostly the hormones and the stress thinking. We still aren’t perfect, in fact I still don’t know if our relationship is going to work. But if you know in your heart he loves this child and would do everything in his power to be a good father then I would say let him be in the baby’s life even if you don’t want to be in his. I know how stressful it is but a custody battle isn’t going to make things easier, that should only be your last resort. I promise the moment you hold your baby for the first time; all the fears will disperse and you will nothing but joy. I wasn’t ready to have a baby or settle down. Honestly, I almost had an abortion. That’s where I was a year ago and today I couldn’t be happier, not because my life is perfect but because SHE is perfect in my life. I hope you find peace and happiness and most of all I hope you find someone that will love you and your children the ways you deserve to be loved.
