my boyfriend doesnt trust himself…

another thing is we are both still virgins both wanting to wait until we are married. i talked to him some more and he said he doesnt want to go with out me and he used this as an excuse to get out of going if i wasnt because people are trying to break us up(his ex gf is a popular girl and has alot of people trying to break us up she is still mad in love with him)and if he goes there without me he knows that they will start some drama. he said he would never do something that he would be scared to tell me about or that would hurt me …then he got upset cuz i asked how he would feel if when i go on vacation with my friend like i do every year and i guy throws himself at me and if i told him i didnt trust myself how would he react. he got upset and then we talked and he told me that in the summer when he has football everyday and goes away to camp how is he supposed to know that i still care and that im not out hanging with other guys when we dont get to see eachother for weeks. i told him: honestly i would tell you i have not given you a reason not to trust me i tell you when guys flirt with me …i dont need to be with you to know i love you…we talked a little more and he trusts me but im still bothered by this trip i dont really want to go because i only talk to one of the girls going and i dont want to look dumb all by myself plus his ex gf i going. i do want to go though because it sounds like alot of fun and me and my bf will have alot of time to hangout

ok so being the die hard communicater that i am i of course didnt drop this. we worked it out he said that he can control himself he just didnt want to be put in a situation that could lead to rumors since people are trying to break us up…well recently ive heard about this girl flirting with him when i wasnt in school she has huge crush on him. from what i have heard she was hitting on him big time ..and that he wasnt flirting backor even acknowledging her really i heard this ffrom about 4 peoplle and they all say he didnt flirt back so im happy about that but i was sooooo mad when i heard that she actually tried to make a move on him when i wasnt around..now i feel like ripping her to peices today in the class that we all 3 have together she i swear had a smirk on her face when she seen me and him together now i feel all clingy in a way. i want to search his phone(ive never done this, he has offered to let me) i want to ask hhim everything like how much he is with girls, how many he might like..all sorts of questions like that and wanting to “test”if he would cheat on me. but i dont know why since before this girl i had no really big problems with him talking to girls.