I really like all the advice you give on here and I searching for something similar to this but I didn’t see anything I didn’t want to have you answer something you have already but I couldn’t find it lol

I’m going to do my best to summarize this. Basically I have been seeing this one girl for a few days under 3 years now and when I asked her out in the past she told me no and kinda put me in an odd friend zone. When we met the first year we saw each other almost every night. Then this past semester we saw each other a little less like 1-2 times a week and she would always ask me to come over around 9-10 at night then I’d stay to 4-8am. A few days before last thanksgiving we went to a party and she got drunk and I’ve noticed that she nearly completely avoids me when she drinks and once she told me she couldn’t drink around me because she’d try to sleep with me but I’ve never seen such an attempt and I wouldn’t let her try drunk anyways which she knows. At the party one regular looking guy danced with her and kissed her and I don’t know how to be angry at a girl and I didn’t want to get angry at the guy because he had no idea what he did so I left and didn’t talk to her for a few weeks until she told me she was really sick so I went to see her and then I cut her off from talking to me for a little over a month until last weekend which was her birthday so I surprised her the night before it with her favorite cake and a bouquet of roses. After a while she asked If I would drink with her so then we got drunk and one of her close friends came with her bf. The girl I like completely distanced me again for 1-2 hours while she was drunk and with her friend and I got annoyed so when she left to get something from her room I asked her what my crushes problem was and she told me it was because “she was afraid and intimidated by me”. I’ve been seeing her for 3 years! Then probably texted my crush I was annoyed by her and was going to leave so she asked me to go to her room and we went to sleep. I still haven’t ever kissed her though, and I haven’t because I don’t want to have my first kiss with her while we are drunk because I want it to be special and because I’m accustomed to girls asking me permission to kiss me so I feel like I’m being overly aggressive If I was to pull her over and try. I have too much respect for her to. Even the other day during a conversation I told her I couldn’t replace her because she is really special to me and she still told me there is nothing about her I should think she’s special for since she’s an “ordinary girl”. I’m completely in love with this girl and I don’t know how to get it across in a way she’d believe that I’m genuine with it. She even gets angry when I say hello to my female acquaintances in classes lol. I’ve been trying to give her compliments often this past week to try to boost her ego but I want to do and know everything possible which I could do to make her mine and trust my words, I’ve never given her a reason to doubt them either. 🙁

I’m sorry this is very long and I’d sincerely appreciate any advice your willing to give me!
Thank you so much!