I am at a weird standstill in my life. I am currently seeing a wonderful man that I met online in february. His family has been so kind and welcoming to me and he has offered me such newfound happiness that I have no words to describe it. He lives an hour away and i live in the city, using only public transit, i try to visit him almost every weekend, if not every other weekend.
The problem is I am working at a new job that while i enjoy, doesn’t pay very much. I make rent, can pay for groceries and whatever i need, but it’s a very tight budget. I have been walking to work instead of paying bus fare to save money so that I can pay the train fare to go out and see him. It also eliminates the possibility of me working weekends for extra cash, as this is my only time to see him.
I am doing my best to apply for all the better paying Monday through Friday jobs, literally sending out 3 to 4 applications whenever i have the chance. He occasionally comes and picks me up so that i don’t have to pay train fare but this isn’t always practical.
I’m not sure what my question is but I think it is: do i choose love or money?
Let me say, I feel the future is brighter with him in it. While I am perfectly capable of being happy on my own, been doing it for years just fine, I truly want this man in my life to stay.
Can you help me at all?
