My boyfriend and I have been on a break for a month now( per his request ..so he can sort out his life)..I have practiced NC ..however he has been the one initiating contact with me. The last time i actually spoke with him was last week when he first texted me saying he was missing me , wanted to see me and then ask me out on a date! I guess i did not reply soon enough that he felt the urge to call me . We talked for about 30 minutes and the conversation was great! Basically, he said that he was missing me, telling me how he was trying to change his lifestyle( he is a heavy drinker!), what he had done since the last time i heard from him, telling me that he tought i had been “perfect” prior to the break, that he had wanted to stop by but never dared , that he had tought at one point that he had lost me forever( not sure why he thought that since i always told him that id always be there when he is done sorting out his life!)…..and that he wanted to see me! Well , the date was supposed to be last saturday but he cancelled at last minute stating he was sick and that we should postponed unil sunday. He texted me to tell me that which led me to think that he had been drinking and did not want me to hear he was intoxicated! Anyhow,i was not available sunday so i told him to call me when he ” felt better”. A couple days later , i sent him a text asking him how he was doing and that i was missing him! No reply!….Since then , he has called me 2 days ago but since i was busy working, i was not able to answer ! He did not leave a message! ….since then nothing..
I have been wanting to write him a letter to let him how i really feel about him but not sure what to say without sounding too needy! I still love him, want to see him, care deeply for him and want to help him getting out of his addiction….
Any advice???? Is the letter a good thing to do or should i let him contact me?? I must admit that a written letter would do me good since i have a hard time expressing my feelings with spoken words! I never told him i loved him!
I would greatly appreciate any advice!
