well april, its a little bit of both. hes threatned my life because i made that mistake, in the past, plus he doesn’t want me competing. plus im really not sure she’ll take me back, just because she would be single again. i dont know if its legit, but he told me they really love each other, and that even though they’re kids like me, he said shes goes around telling me, that he is her husband, so i dont know if he bs-ing me or telling me the harsh truth. infact he said alot of the thing like that they talk every day and night and that ”he would help me getta 2nd chance once they breakup, but honestly with the stuff hes done hes shady and trustworthy, but they probaly hang out alot. remember this is a high school relationship problem, so im sure it differs greatly to an adult relationship, unless u tell me otherwise. tell me what you think of all this. and yeah i am indeed desperate…not literally, but im basically on my knees pleading for her respect and love. plus usually when she says she’ll call she doesnt. her most recent excuse was that shes been busy. the boyfriend also tells me they’ll be together for a long time, especially that theyre in school and that alot of girls ask him out but he denys them because this girl were competing with ”ashley” is apparently special to him. but with all the claims of abuse going around, i dont know what to believe. im not gonna lie april, im indeed OBSESSED. my craving for her is so strong, i think about her 24/7, i just cant sleep or cope with my off-kilter life properly. i want her back more than anything april! i dont know weather to take these kids word for it or they’re just screwin with me. to recap with my advice request, im terrible with my relentless desperation , and pretty much further advice for ”my pursuit of interest”. i guess its also about a loss of security. i feel that when and if shes mine again, ill be happy and finally gain a sence of relief!
