I met the girl of my dreams a year and a half ago. It took a lot of courage, but I asked her out. She had a boyfriend at the time, but she was still very nice to me, but I didn’t see or speak to her for a year after that. Her boyfriend cheated on her and they broke up a few months ago. We started talking and went out on an official date once. She told me a couple days later that she tried but she was not ready to see anyone the way I wanted to see her, but she still texts me every couple days, invites me to go see her at work, watches shows and listens to music that I introduced her to. It’s a unique situation because I have written her deep poetry and songs, I am much older than her, and I’m not sure about her thoughts on me because she has never shared them with me. Every time I bring up anything other than small talk I think it pesters her, because she says she doesn’t want to be pressured and she says no one has ever told her the deep stuff that I have told her and we are not close friends so she doesn’t understand why I feel so strongly for her, but she hasn’t shut me out of her life. I’m feel sure that her friends are in her ear telling her I’m not right for her, and I don’t know how to fight that battle because even though our ages are apart we actually are a perfect fit for each other and I know I am not in a state of infatuation because I have been through that before and this is different. This feeling is not based on physical attraction but a much deeper connection that I feel towards her personality. I am of course willing to wait for when she is ready because no one has ever meant more to me. It is very taxing on me but it is a risk worth taking to me. What do you think is going on in her mind? Advice for me?
