I fell in love with a man from a different state about 6 years ago. I have never met him in real life, yet I feel a connection with him. He has always been someone I have been close to and have kept him close over the years. We have never dated, just talked about the possibilities of what could be if we lived closer. We were on and off when talking, usually we stopped talking for a while in result of new relationships to explore. Despite us seeing other people, we some how come back to eachother, imagining what could have been. We talked about me coming out there in the summer. I didn’t think it would actually happen, so I went and looked for a new relationship. I told him that I found someone and I didn’t hear from him for two months. One day, he texted me telling me that he didn’t want to say anything because I seemed happy with a new person, but he had my tickets bought a few days before I told him about my new relationship. I kick myself in the butt for missing this opportunity.
I have been in a new relationship for a year now and this is the first time I have ever kept a relationship going this long. I moved in with my now boyfriend about 3 months into the relationship. All has been well, despite the fights I pick due to my stress from school, work, and college athletics.
However, I am starting to feel like I should leave this man to be on my own for a while. I also am still hung up on the man I never met, but feel something for. I am generally confused about my feelings and what I should do.
