Your love for someone is real, deep, and loyal but their behavior keeps showing you something very different from what you deserve. What you described isn’t love in action. It’s inconsistency, control, and convenience. When someone only shows affection when they need money or attention, but ignores your feelings the rest of the time, it leaves you emotionally starving. And the hardest part is that your love for him makes you excuse things that are hurting you. But love shouldn’t make you cry more than you smile. It shouldn’t make you feel small. It shouldn’t require permission just to live your own life.
What you’re feeling your confusion, your sadness, your hope it all makes sense. But caring for him doesn’t mean you have to keep accepting behavior that breaks your spirit. Someone who truly values you will want to protect your heart, not damage it. You’re holding onto the version of him you wish he were, not the version he’s showing you now. And even though you still love him, you’re allowed to choose yourself. You’re allowed to want peace, respect, and a relationship where love goes both ways not one where you’re giving everything and receiving crumbs. You deserve the kind of love that doesn’t make you question your worth.
