i have been dating my boyfriend for 5 months now, and we haven’t fought, and everything seems to be going really well. he is 25, and i am 22. We see each other about 3 times a week. We do not talk much during the day because he has no service at work, and lately he has had a lot of side work to do after work, so this week it might be less. I am leaving for an internship for college this summer, and will be gone for 3 months. I will be 4.5 hours away from him for the whole summer. we agreed on seeing each other twice a month. him coming once a month, and me coming home once a month. He seems like he could be the one, but lately I feel distant from him. we haven’t fought, but since he has been so busy with work, we haven’t communicated much. He sends me a morning text every day before he goes to work. its always cute, and then when he is on lunch break he sends me one, and then after work before he starts his side job stuff. just small talk I guess. I think its a mix of me knowing i am leaving in two weeks, and the fact that I am in love with him. my last boyfriend and I dated for 7 years, and it was really hard to give my heart out again, but I did. tonight I asked him how he felt about me and this summer, and he said that this will be a good thing for me to really find myself, and become more independent than I already am. and I asked how he felt about “us” and he said that I am the nicest girl he has ever met, and give him the free time that he needs to get things done. and then I asked him if he is 100$% in this relationship, and he said yes, and that he loves me. I just don’t feel convinced. he is not the type to tell you something that he doesnt mean. so I know he is still in it a little at least, but I just have this little feeling that he just doesnt know about us. maybe its cuz I havent seen him much this week, and I am leaving, We saw eachother sunday, and it was amazing. I am already sad about leaving, so maybe that could be it?.. I dunno. I asked my friends what they thought, and they all think I have nothing to worry about, and this will only make us stronger.. They also said that he is a great guy, and wouldnt toy with me. but maybe my guard is up? I just feel like he might brake my heart. He is not like that, I know.. he always told me from day one he would tell me how he really feels, and that he would not toy with me.. but for some reason, I cant get these negative thoughts outta my head… will these 3 months be a ” distance makes the heart grow fonder”, or ” out of sight, out of mind?” 🙁
