RESPECTED MASINI
i was in perfect relation with a very nice guy since last year.but because of my rude and bossy nature, he said to me in june that he can only b friends. still he was caring and used to come to c me every evening till september.
in september i begged him, created scene, did drama, basically ever wrong thing,which pushed him further away. last time i saw him was in september on my birthday.
all october i was caling him day and nite.he was really rude and said-we have no future so i shud move on. i cant give you another chance to change your nature. when i now that i cant marry anyone for another 2-3 years because of some serious problem (which i know), i cant commit to anyone, so i dont want to have any relation with anyone in my life. i love my freedom and alcohol and dont want relation in my life. i am not saying-WITH U but with anyone. i was still forcing him over phone.in last week of october he said to me that i shud leave him alone and stop calling him. when he will feel comfortable, he ill call me himself. otherwise every thing is over between us and he can not be friend to me as it is difficult for him to pretend to b a friend to me. but incase i need help, i can call him anytime.
so since then i never contacted him. he himself called me 4 times till today”s date just to say hi hello. he never talks about past or shows interest in fixing anything. he just talks on general topics.
but never ever he has disconnected my phone or avoided my call in October to insult me. on my birthday also he said that, if i think that things will go better by time, then i shud wait and not create scene or pressurize him. but very next day he called me and said-we have no future, so move on.
i really luv him and admit my mistake and want a chance to fix things. but he doesnot wants to c me at all. he does not wants me to call him at all. then how can i show him any improvements..??
everyone is saying be patient, he will come back by time, when his anger and frustration will calm down. but i fear-that with time, he will learn to live without me and will forget me. i know he hasnot got any other gal in his life. but he will learn to live without me. he will move on. what shud i do..??
i am so confused. i cant understand, if he really doesnt wants to give me a chance and every thing is finished..??
OR
he still loves me, has feelings for me, cares for me, but just does not shows and there is some hope in my relation for reconciliation..??
I am willing to wait for him. i really love him. but what shud i do..?? plz help
