I’m confused about what to do next. I’m 21 years old and i work in a kitchen of a restaurant, Before I begin, ill explain one thing quickly. Where i work there is a large 12 bedroomed house that can be rented out, but while its empty staff are allowed to use to stay. This is where we went.
Now there’s a girl who started working there that i really like, she has been working there for about 3 months now, and in that time I’ve been gently flirting with her. Now its sort of a running line in the place that i have crush on her, and she knows this.
2 weeks ago, we had a staff party, we were all dancing and drinking, i managed to get her alone and told her my feelings for her. I told her that i obviously like her and want to be with her, she replyed that she likes me as well, but has just come out of an abusive relationship and doesn’t want to start anything, she said that she see’s me as a friend and won’t sleep with me. As the night went on and the party dyed out, we left and went over to the house, we snuggled on the sofa for a bit, and then she told me she was tired so i helped her upstairs to bed. As she undressed and got in she told me that she wouldn’t mind some company, so of course a said yes. Now we just snuggled and slept for the night, no touching or kissing.
So after this all was fine, we carried on. Now 3 nights ago, (Sunday night) after service, she suggested that we do a film night tonight, so me, her and the chef went over to the house and set up a film, We were all drinking and i has snuggling up with her massaging her legs, and getting closer to her. Now when the chef went to bed, watched some of another film before we decided to go upstairs.
Even though she had made it clear at the staff party that she just see’s me a friend and wasn’t going to sleep with me, this all changed that night. We kissed passionately, and i used foreplay, before the sex. it was good, we both enjoyed it.
Now for the confusing part. we sat in bed and talked in the morning, when i got up to leave for work, there was an awkward pause, she asked if i wanted to kiss, so we had a quick couple of kisses. she then said, ‘just friends’ and i replyed, ‘Course’.
It’s been both of our days off now and ill next see her tomorrow, What do i say, do i tell that i had good time on Sunday, or just leave it? I don’t want it to be awkward, but i don’t want to pretend either. Do i tell her that i’m there for her if she needs me, if she wants me….?
Thank You. So its so long.
