I’m turning 30 next year, I live in a house that I just bought this year and my boyfriend pays rent when he can, my boyfriend is 5 years younger than me and is going through a divorce, bankruptcy and is currently unemployed. I have tried to break up with him, but he won’t budge, I keep thinking that he’s going to hurt himself. he says he’s in love with me. I desperately wanted to start a family, and I think that is when I fell into this hole. He is a good guy, but I’m not in love and I think it’s because of all of the things listed above. I’m not scared of being alone at 30, I’m scared of being with someone who isn’t the one for me and feeling trapped. It’s hard too because he moved 2 hours away from his friends and family to be with me. And to top it off his dog is having puppies in a couple weeks, I know it sounds dumb, but what do I do with 8-10 puppies??? I just really don’t know what to do. My familly isn’t happy about the situation, why am I doing this to my self? how can I clean this mess without hurting him too badly? or am I avoiding being happy with someone that I’ve spent a year with?? I’m so lost.
