Ok, so there is this really good friend of mine who he told me that he loves me…but he has a girlfriend.
I asked him to my school’s Christmas dance last year and he went. We danced and had a really good time. My only mistake was that I never told him how much I liked him. Three months later, I finally got the courage to tell him that I liked him. Unfortunately, I come to find out that he likes me too…but he has a girlfriend. We still continued being friends, despite the fact of what happened.
Months later, he tells me something he never told me before. He told me that I was his “first choice”. He told me that he’s always liked me and he regrets never telling me how he felt and asking me out. He said he was afraid to tell me because “I don’t like myself, so why would you like me”. And to this day, he said he still regrets it. I asked him why he liked his girlfriend. He only replied, “It’s nice for someone to care about you, you know? I don’t know why I like her.” He even told me that he’s not even sure she’ll stay with him. That same night, I told him that despite the fact that I thought there was something between us, I still care for him, and that he’s the best guy I’ve ever met. Then I told him that I loved him, and he said he loved me too.
The next day, we hung out at his house. We were playing video games, and out of nowhere, he holds me as we’re playing. After a while, he started tickling me and grabbed my boobs. Unfortunately, I bought into it and enjoyed every minute of it. Later that day, he dropped me back home, and two of my friends came over. I told them the whole thing, and now they hate him.
We decided to hang out again, and I told him that I didn’t understand why he was acting that way. He told me that he didn’t know. Something came over me and I started crying. He had his arm around me and did nothing but watch me cry. Later, one of his friends came over, and it got awkward for there. Eventually we started talking a lot again, but I’m still confused and annoyed to this day. Lately, I thought about asking him a certain question, but I think if I do, I’m going to completely regret it for the rest of my life. I mean, we’ve been friends for five or six years now…he has flirted with me before(not to this extent), even when he was going out with his exs. So I’m honestly lost.
So, basically I’m asking this. Should I talk to him about this? Should I just stay friends with him? What should I do?
