[secretswan]

I am from florida and he is from NY. I was visiting my cousin when I was 17 and at the end of my trip my cousins friend wanted to set me up with her husbands friend (21 years old) I wasnt really interested so I didnt look into it. When I left NY i got in contact with him and we started off amazing. We became friends really quickly but he was always into me more than I was into him. I finally met him 2 months later in person and we were automatically a couple calling each other babe and completely head over heels for each other, everyone knew I was his girl. Then I left NY again for about 5 months and it really hurt us both to be with each other, he always hated the idea of long distance but we liked each other too much to end it. We facetimed and spoke every day and and I said Id rather be friends bc I cant feel this way of missing him and he didnt like the idea of friends it but he dealt with it bc he didnt want me out of his life. We made it work for 6 months bc we were madly into each other, even talking about getting married. As it was getting closer to seeing him again we started getting into stupid arguments (mostly bc of me) every other day about how we talk to much and hes like we dont and dumb stuff, but then I went to NY again. It was amazing we were head over heels for each other again and I was falling for him. Then one day in NY he Face times me and says he cant be with me bc of his parents and they wanted a girl within the same culture and it bothers his dad. I yelled at him and cried and he finally said I love you to me but he couldnt be with me as much as he wanted. He even dried a little bit over the phone. He begged me not to block him off so I didnt. The next day he tells me he spoke to his family and he fought for me and he tells me he loves me and wants me back. I ask him if he’s sure he wants to be with me and if loves me and he says yes 100% and he doesnt want to hurt me again so we get back together. After that for 3 days we started having little fights here and there about how the last night im in NY he cant see me bc he has to go clubbing with a friend visiting and he was being a little sketchy. I did over react for a little but I saw he was treating me different so I call him to talk about how i feel (this is 3 days after we get back) and I ask if he wants to be with me and he was hesisating im like yes or no and he says no. I see him that night and start crying bc how could he do this to me after i trusted him again and all he said was Im sorry and that hes not ready (BS) . He never actually gave me a reason why we broke up. One of his friends say he lost feelings, the other says its his parents. I have no clue. So the next day I spent begging him to take me back and he says I want you in my life and Ill always be there for you and I care about you but you need to move on and he says have a good flight home. I text him 2 weeks later and he basically tells me to fuck off and i should stop investigating bc theres nothing to talk about and that this is the past. About a month and a half later I go to NY again and I see him at a birthday party and he just says hi and ignores me the rest of the night but gets drunk and starts hugging me saying I dont want you to hate me and at that point Im over him. A few days later I ask to meet up as friends and hes like i cant im sorry im like i moved on hes like Ya Im sorry im seeing someone its not a good idea. And ignores me. So i say to myself wow i thought u werent ready, plus im close with all his friend, they would know if he had a girl. In the matter of a day he became a stranger. It boggles my mind how can someone lose feelings in 3 days after they said I love you and after 6 months of saying “baby im waiting for you” and then just completely cut you off. Now that Im moving to NY and I really miss him again im thinking do i have a shot or are we done for good? I dont know why we broke up. It could have been the long distance, it could have been his parent, or that he lost feelings, i have no clue. But I just need to know If ill ever get him back. I love him to death as much as he hurt me and a part of me feels like he does love me but for some reason he chooses to ignore me. I would have never seen him leave me, he was always the one saying i dont want anyone else. So I have no idea. I lost my best friend and my love. Im just hoping this is the space he needs and maybe we can start over when I move but as of now it looks like he doesnt want anything to do with me.
I just want him back.
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[AskApril Masini]

I know that rejection can be a very harsh reality, but just because you want him doesn’t mean he wants you. In fact, he doesn’t. 🙁 He’s made it very clear that he doesn’t want to be with you, and you should respect his feelings. Time to move on and find someone who does want to be with you. 😉

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