Finally retrieved my password. Sorry for the inconvenience.
I asked for an advice here weeks ago about my bf saying that he was confused. I went to his place yesterday and finally had some answers. He said he can’t be happy with someone. Even with me. Or with any woman. He said he sees himself alone for the rest of his life. I don’t really understand. I asked him why did he pursue me in the first place and he said that he thought he would be happy again. He said it’s the same. So this whole time it wasn’t his exes that had a problem, but it was him.
I told him we can start again. Not now but maybe once he is ready. He just shook his head and said “you need to live”. I then asked him, “what now? You are breaking up with me? Because I am not going to do it. I am holding on to this.” He did not say anything. I am willing to wait for him but I told him that sooner or later my patience will run out. He unblocked my number and he replied if I message him. As much as I am glad that I have some answers for his behavior that made me crazy for two weeks, I still don’t understand this whole “I see myself alone forever” thing. My friends told me that he might be saying that because he might be with someone else. I can’t let him and I know this sounds foolish but I know in my heart that he’ll come back.
I even told him that I don’t want to open my heart to someone else. He said he won’t do the same because he won’t let anyone near his heart ever. Sometimes I think he is just trying different types of girls and he uses that “I can’t be happy with someone” to validate his excuse. I also associate it to the fact that he is still young (he’ll be 24 on April and I’ll be 26 in June), and at this age he still needs to mature. I let him be for a while because he is still not okay.
[b]UPDATE: [/b]I found out earlier that he was talking to his ex-girlfriend. But there were no intimate messages in there. So I also found out that he told her that he and I are over. That was January 30th. He said that to her, yet he can’t say it to me. The ex was like encouraging him to think long and hard, stating, “Are you sure? Maybe you’re just confused”. And he replied, “Yes, I am sure.” I know I don’t have the right to be jealous anymore, but he’s acting that’s he’s happy. He even asked her to hang out and send her some pastries he bakes.
His dad told me that if we’re meant to be, we’re meant to be. He said that his son still cares for me despite of how he feels right now. He and I just finished talking in Facebook and he ended the relationship saying that he doesn’t need to explain who he’s talking to about us because it’s all over. He said we wants to be alone, he wants to do things alone. I asked him for how long and he said, “until my heart tells me to stop being alone”. I don’t really understand these types of people. In this case, does he still have a chance to be recovered and turn into a man I used to love? After that break up, we were casually talking and I told him that he will never be alone forever. It’s as if that is going to convince him. I am still hoping for him to come back. Because he and I never met before, he was in this website and followed me in 2010 and did not say anything until 2013. So I connect that that we are destined to be together because he’s a guy I found in the Internet and I thought that he’s the one. Then, he turned into this man that has lost his love for me entirely. He left me damaged and all he can say is sorry. I don’t know how long I can live with myself feeling like this.
