so i met this guy about a month ago at the gym. we’ve been video chatting, texting, talking every day since. he mentioned to me that he still had confusing feeling when it came to his recent ex. but that he would not want me out of his life, and still saw a future with me. he said if he didnt, he would be honest and let me know. so we actually recent had our first date, everything was amazing, he treated me to dinner and a movie, held me hand as we crossed the street and wouldnt let go, in my mind this was a date, i have close guy friends all my life, and they’ve never treated me this well. i bet he doesnt chill with own homies this way, smh. when it ended he walked me home, and i thought he was leaning in to kiss me after he squeezed me tight goodnight. thinking he would kiss me, i leaned in too. only for him to reject it, and state that he wouldnt feel comfortable, because he dealing with another person aka his ex. i was embarrassed to say the least. when i called him to let him know i was home, and talked about what happened, when then he finally told me that he had still been messing with the ex, physically. i was instantly hurting and felt like crap. he never told me anything as far as this. if i had known, i wouldnt have put myself out there. its like this girls snapped her fingers nad he came running back. feeling like i was just something to pass the time while he figured out what he was doing with her. smh. i told him i couldn’t be friends, tlak or chill anymore. it wasnt easy. he told me that we would probably never happen. after relentless courting me, he just changed like the weather, like i was making shit up in my head. his last words to me, we. im sorry if i ever did anything to hurt you, i only meant well, take care sweetie. what the hell is this shit???? did i completely waste my time?
