so yesterday i had his phone and i had already been suspicious of him still loving her, so i looked through their dms on insta. i know it was wrong but god only know hes wouldnt tell me these things himself. she lives 40 minutes away yet hes ready to jump at any opportunity to see her. when i was on vacation he messaged her asking to hang out, but he claimed they probably shouldn’t because he wouldnt be able to stop thinking about kissing and holding her the whole time. and he was saying hes so desperate when it comes to seeing her, that he could give her perfect why doesnt she want perfect. it was just a mess. this was a month ago we’ve been together for 3. when we met i think he had just gotten out of the relationship so he kind of was pushed into a new relationship without being ready i feel like. then in april, he dmed her just saying “the notebook.” and i know what hes trying to say with that. you know the whole storyline of the notebook right? a guy trying to move on from his ex but deep inside he still prays to god she comes back someday and he will never stop loving her. so wanna hear whats even more messed up about that? we watched that movie together the first day we hung out. so im stuck. i dont want to admit i looked through his private messages but i cant move on from this.? i can’t lose him yet i feel like i shouldn’t be with him.
