So there was this 1 guy who I’ve met just a few weeks ago. We just talked about normal stuffs n days later we started txting. But it seems like he’s in a rush. He keeps on bringing up this heavy topics such as wanting me to meet his parents and his friends, wanting to sent photos of me to his mum. I panicked and told him to take it slow. And so he did. I appreciate tht. But it still feels like he’s rushing things. He would always find chances to ask me out, like for lunch or just a walk to the town. I think it’s sweet but it feels like Im not ready yet to take tht huge step. So evry time he asked me out I would come out with excuses. It seems too fast for me. N I hve this guilty feeling inside of me, worrying tht I might not be able to feel those same feelings he had for me. I like him but I’m not into him tht deep, yet. Wht if I unconsciously use him to mke me feel better of myself? Sometimes,I feel like I’m misleading him. N I hve this constant worry of wht my family n friends thought of him. Honestly, his weight is three times my weight n he’s bald. I don’t know, im one of those people who cares too much about others thinking, especially the ones I care about. A part of me is afraid tht my family n friends will be too judgemental about him. I’m hvg this bad habit of listing down his pros n cons in my head. Its like Im considering if he’s good enough for me. I know, Im being selfish n judgemental but I cant help it. Im hvg too much doubts, aren’t I? Is tht bad? Ive had too much of shitty relationships before so I guess thts why Im being extra careful. So wht should I do?
