i don’t know what to think about this, i’m so upset :(

my boyfriend of two months is leaving for boot camp in january. he broke up with me on wednesday because he explained that he doesn’t want anything that’s going to make him want to stay. so he doesn’t wanna apply for more jobs (because he’s trying to be a cop) and he doesn’t want to be with me because he doesn’t wanna get deeper into our relationship and fall harder for me and then he has to leave. he was coming up with all these scenarios like “what if we do date while i’m away for 6 months and i come back and i’m a completely different person..or what if these next 5 months are miserable because we’re arguing all the time because i’m distant?” he said there’s too many “what ifs” and he always wonders if he’s being a jerk for dating me and holding me back when we know the inevitable is coming and that he’s leaving. i told him what hurts the most is that it is worth it to me to be with him for the next 5 months and get hurt, but for him it’s not. i can’t explain the way i feel, i’m so hurt and upset. he still wants to talk to me and hang out, and i said “did you even have feelings for me?” and he said “of course i did..i still do..i just think this is the best decision for both of us.”

i have such a mix of emotions and i’m trying to figure out if he even cared? did he have feelings for me and he really is doing this for the both of us? or is this just a bunch of bs? can you please explain this situation?