Hi April,
I am afraid I am unable to put things in words. But I think it would be only one single chance left for me now. I would explaain.
I moved out from my country to other one. A friend of mine had her sis staying in here. That how I met her. It was a pretty friendly interaction and eventually she moved out to different city. Not much in contact first, but we gradually started chatting almost full day. We also spent one week together with vacation coming but pretty friendly way no initimacy as such. we continued chatting for almost 2 yrs met few times, planned to meet few more times and but couldnt make it. Spent one week together, before she went back to our native country, that is when I really started developing some thoughts that I am going to miss her and started holding her hand, patting on her back. But back of mind, I was always pulled away bcoz she is much younger than me (4-5 yrs, oh i m 31). I did tell her that it is in a way bad, that she plans to go back. She promised to be online. And she does still talks.
If I dont speak for 3-4days, pings me and ask why am I not chatting? Replies back maybe sometimes not online, but replies after she is online. I told her I coming back for break, so asks me when can we meet. She knows I am more in her contact than her sis. She tells me her parents are asking her to settle down, asks about when am I settling down. Does she really having any thoughts or is she just being friendly and whatever she is talking/doing just out of innocense.
Is it right on my part to ask her? If yes, how should I talk. Would she find it stupid of me that I such thoughts? Any guesses what might be going in her mind?
