I’ve had a pretty rubbish few years, made bad life choices, lost close family members and tried to be there for my mum who’s been battling cancer. For the last 3 years, I’ve been with my current girlfriend…it got off to a fairly bad start, with her sleeping with someone else the same night we first got together. I didn’t find this out for a few months, but when i did she claimed she was confused after just ending another long relationship previously. I forgave her and tried my best to move on. There have been smaller issues with trust (i.e phones, email, facebook etc) but these do not bother me. I recently discovered more of how she used to be and can’t even imagine it, not that i want to…things like drinking in parks, being with muliple guys etc…essentially not the girl i thought of in my head, but the one i do imagine, i love and feel like i need. It’s been nearly 3 years and i’m still having issues. We’ve spoken about it before, and she’s told me i know everything…I’m pretty sure i don’t, having come across an old leavers book with more stories in that i couldn’t even make it to the end of and feel terribly guilty just for feeling like this about the girl I’ve been with so long. And just to top it off…being students in our last year, in a months time, we’re moving in together (contract signed etc…)
I don’t know where to go from here but it’s doing nothing for my head and my life and i need a change…any advice at all would be great.
