What should I do?

I’m sorry this is long…

I have been friends with this guy for about a year. He is probably the funniest person I’ve ever met in my entire life, and we have so much fun together. We are probably the most different people ever in so many ways though, and I could never ever ever picture myself dating him. I knew a long time ago that he liked me. I didn’t like him at all and I figured that if I just didn’t pursue it, he would get over it. We still hung out a lot though, and I was just careful to make sure that I wasn’t leading him on.

About three weeks ago, he asked me to go to a movie with him. We made a joke about how I was just returning him a favor, but it ended up completely being a date. The evening went fine and he was so sweet the entire time. After he dropped me off at home, his car broke down and he had to call me to bring him back home. About an hour after I got home, he came back in his parents car and called me telling me to come out to my door. He made a speech to me that was straight from a movie. He told me how it took him three hours and a broken car to come tell me this to his face, but that he really liked me. The word love almost slipped out at one point, I’m pretty sure. He held my arms and I could feel him shaking as he asked for a response. I told him that he was just my best friend, and before I could even finish he turned around and left. We didn’t talk for two days, which was probably the longest we had ever gone without talking in 8 months.

I finally told him over Facebook– which I understand is ridiculous– how there had been times I had thought I was falling for him, but we think just too differently on so many things (mostly implying religious beliefs.) We had talked about our beliefs and things like that before, and he said that that was one of the things that attracted me to him in the first place– how different we were and how I was able to discuss things so intellectually. He said he understood and we have managed to make things not at all awkward after that, mostly because he sits next to me in a class.

Since that night, he came to my door I was so depressed. I was more upset than I had ever been turning a guy down. I realized that there had to be a reason. I really really liked him, but I just couldn’t do anything about it. Since we thought so differently on things that were so important to me, I didn’t see how it could work.

For the past couple weeks since then, we have hung out all the time. I even stayed at his house once till 4 o’clock in the morning. It seemed like there were a couple of times where we had moments, but nothing really ever happened. The more I thought about it though (which was all the time) I realized that there was no one else I ever wanted to spend my time with. I decided that I wanted to be with him. He was the only one I would even ever considered dating that didn’t believe the same way I did. I finally decided that I wanted to go for it.

We have had this thing where we have been trying to set up two of our friends, so last night the two of them, and him all came over. When they had to leave, I told him he should stay to watch a movie with me, so he did. The whole night though, he showed no signs of liking me still. The thing was that for the first time ever, it got a little awkward between us. I really wished I knew what he was thinking. We decided to go take a hike by this lake (it was about midnight by now), so we drove up together and walked to the shore. It was freezing cold, so we ended up laying there together under his jacket. I kept moving closer and closer to him, resting my head on his shoulders and slowly moving my arm across his chest. I thought I made my intentions clear. We stayed there and talked for about 45 minutes. I am pretty sure that the closer I tried to get to him the more he pulled away. We finally walked back to his car and he drove me home. When we got to my house, he didn’t walk me to the door, or say hardly anything more than goodbye. I figured that was the end of that.

I don’t know if he likes me still, and is just doing this because I turned him down, or if he really just has moved on, and I am just making things awkward. What should I do?