Just a couple months ago.. I found out my fiance was cheating on me for the first 6 months we were together. When I met him… I thought he was the greatest thing in the world.
so, when it was time for me to leave for basic training, I changed my mind, and didn’t go for him. I left home to ny 2 weeks before he left for Iraq.
I was a mess without him.. I did whatever it took to keep my mind off of him being away.. I picked up 2 jobs, saved money.. and soon found out I was pregnant..
When he finally got home 6 months later, it was one of those fairytale moments.. when we saw eachother for the first time in a while.. crying, hugging, and just so happy to be back in eachother’s arms..
well., it was all a lie. A couple months ago, he had left his myspace up, and so I decided to be snoopy and look. I wish I hadnt..
I found messages from him and this other girl, that he had been having sex with THE WHOLE TIME before he left for Iraq. I was staying with him at the time.. and he would go see her before he would come back to me..
Then while he was in Iraq.. he called her.. and wrote messages to her telling her he loved her, and they would talk about me and what he was going to “do” about me when he got home.
Talk about hurt.. this was just in july that he stopped talking to her. So It wasnt that long ago, and I feel so hurt, and so decieved. especially because I changed my life for him, I loved him so much, he proposed to me before he had deployed, and it was a joke. the whole relationship was a joke.
Now we’re having a hard time, because not only do we have a baby, but we have all this stuff going on. and I don’t trust him at all. He doesn’t understand why I can’t forgive him, he tells me he wont do it again.. but 6 weeks before our son was born he had called her.
thats not the end of it..
I decided to give him another chance.. but wanted to test him to see if he would really cheat on me or not. so I made up some random girl, and texted him from another number. He fell for it completely.. and ended up inviting this girl to OUR house, and talked about not wanting me to catch him.
When I finally told him it was me.. he sat there and said he knew it was me the whole time, and was mad so he went with it. That makes NO sense. If a normal guy was to think his fiance was playing with him.. he would say all the right stuff so I wouldn’t think he would cheat.. right?
I dont know what to do.. I want to work things out with him.. but I cant get the image of him and that girl out of my mind. I think about it all the time.. Im so hurt, I wont even let him touch me, or kiss me. I can’t even look at him without getting a sick feeling in my stomach.. Im often in bad moods towards him because Ive been up the whole night before, thinking about all the words he said to her.. and what they did together.. Should I leave and move on? Or give this relationship another chance?
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