How to improve my bond with my online gf?

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  • #2154
    L0stShad0w
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    Before I tell you what’s going on with me right now and why am I here seeking advices and tips, I want to summarize the stories some of my past experiences of [i]failed[/i] online love life, since it may be important to know before I tell you my present story.
    [i](The colored text below is the story. You may choose to skip to the bottom if you like, since the story is big. However I would request reading the story if you think it may be important.)[/i]

    [color=#BF0000][size=85]I am from India. It all began in the year 2007, I was 17. I registered myself on a social networking and a gaming site called Gaiaonline. I was an otaku and the site was anime themed so I was naturally attracted. However, I had no intention to start an online relationship online. In fact, I had never been in a relationship before back then. I signed up [i]under an alternate identity[/i] just for fun and to make friends. So I made a lot of friends and some of them became quite close to me. Years passed. Around the end of 2009, a Malaysian girl, older than me, whom I met at the start of that year and talked often on messengers (because we shared some common ideas and views), sparked some interest in me. She finally confessed her feelings and I asked her if she was serious or kidding. I never been in a relationship before so I was not sure if that was true. She said she was serious and being inexperienced as I am, I said ‘Yes’ [i]under my false identity[/i]. For months I got to know her even more and more and she was as much as determined to take me to her country and cause me to settle there. But I was under a false Identity still and was afraid to reveal myself because I too, also grew fond of her in time and didn’t want to lose my first love. She would have left me if she knew I was lying all along. But eventually I took my chances and faced the inevitable outcome. Told her the truth about me and she finally rejected me in a most hurtful way possible. I still remember I cried for someone who was miles away and never saw in person. That was my failed first love.

    Anyways, for the next few months I was trying to heal from my past injury. I knew it was my mistake so it hurt even more. And I swore never to make the same mistake again. A few months later, in January this year, I met another girl on the same site. She was from the Philippines. She was like 5 years younger to me (14) and seemed to develop a crush on me and liked me a lot. I analyzed her and she seemed like a nice girl at the time. Although she hinted a commitment at first, I delayed trying to know her better. I asked some of her friends about her and the responses came positive. That was when I agreed in the commitment. I was also desperate to heal myself from the last injury. I was truthful to her from the start and honest to her about everything. I could never withstand another break-up. But eventually her interest in me fell day-by-day. Eventually she admitted that she would be distracted too often and she never took the relationship seriously. I tried to keep it up as long as possible but by the start of March, I let her go myself, detecting her intense lack of interest in this. Once again, I picked the wrong girl. I made a mistake?

    I nearly gave up looking for relationships. I tried to forget everything and move on. I kept myself busy in various activities and was soon moving on without a problem at all. However sometimes thinking back would hurt me and made me feel lonely.[/size][/color]

    So anyways, back when I joined the site, in the year 2007s I also made friends with lot of other newcomers. I made friends with a girl who was, for all these years one of my closest and the best friend there. I know people can alter their looks and identity online, but it’s hard to conceal your true personality online since it reflects through your texts and chats. From what I gathered, she seemed to be the nicest girl I’ve ever seen. Modest and kind. Gentle and spoke quite well. She claimed she was from UK and told me her name which resembled an english name. I liked her for these whole 2 years. And I might have had a crush on her all these while as well. But I never spoke up and told her anything. We were like the closest friends there and we talked for the whole 2 years like any close friends would.

    This month, just a few days ago I happened to talk again and this time we both revealed out identities to each other. I was surprised and excited to know that she was an Indian as well and was from my own culture. She was surprised to know the same. Our communications then-on grew more intense as she and me had a lot in common. She is an Indian, like me. She was born in India and currently resides in UK. She is one year younger than me. And her mother language is the same as mine. We talked a lot and eventually confessed to her that I liked her all these while. And to my surprise, she said she liked me all these years too. None of us had enough courage to confess it before however. She apparently, like me, never had a relationship in real life. I already liked her a lot from her personality (looks doesn’t matter to much). So we both accepted each other and now we are a couple for like, 2 days. She apparently trusts me and so do I. She is in her final year of high school and will be rather busy preparing for her exams, which I understand is more important than anything else right now.

    [u]But here is the thing I am afraid about.[/u] What if I end up breaking it up again? I am being honest to her. We both seem to like each other and she is quite mature too and [i]so far[/i] seems to show interest in the relationship. But we haven’t talked about taking the relationship to the real life extent yet. Which I hope to, someday because for one thing, girls like her are hard to come by. Her modesty and kindness really impressed me. I like her purely because of her wonderful personality. And I’d like to take this relationship to a serious level if she wants to do the same. [u]Can you please give me some tips and advices on how and when do I approach her with this matter? Or how to improve our bonds so that she starts thinking about our relationship seriously as well? [/u] I want to take time, be patient and take this slowly but please tell me what kind of obstacles to watch out for and how do I progress so that this relationship is never broken. Because I know, if this one breaks I would really regret it a lot.

    Thank you for taking your time to read my [i]rather long[i] story. I apologize if I bored you with it. I expect to include all important points as necessary in the story for better understanding of my scenario. But if you would like to ask any more questions, please ask them and I will provide them on my next post.

    I am expecting your humble reply.
    Thank you.

    #13379
    April Masini
    Keymaster

    First of all, you have to understand the nature of dating. You don’t find Ms. Right until you actually do a bit of dating and get to know someone. That process [i]absolutely requires rejection[/i] from both people because not everyone is a perfect match, and if you and the woman you’re interested in are not honest with each other about yourselves and your compatibility, you’re going to waste each others’ time. So know that going into any relationship there’s a stronger chance of rejection than acceptance. If you don’t understand and accept that dynamic you’re going to find yourself in a lot of pain — which is what you’ve been doing up until now. Rejection is an important part of dating.

    If you meet someone and after a while realize they’re not right for you, you’d be dishonest and doing yourself and her a disservice if you didn’t break up with her, and the same goes for her. Of course the more you date, the wiser you’ll become at finding out what you want from a woman, and what you have to offer, so getting to the point of who’s right and who’s not will become easier. But for now, you’re just starting out, so expect some rejection and expect to do some rejecting! 😆

    In response to your underlined request for advice on taking your current relationship to the next level, the obvious answer is to have a date in real life! The internet is a good tool for meeting people, but it’s a bad place to conduct the entire relationship. Real life chemistry is something you can’t get online. So find a way to ask her out on a date, and begin a real life courtship. That will telegraph your seriousness about getting to know her and give you both a lot more information about each other and your possible relationship! 🙂 She’ll get the opportunity to decide whether or not she wants a serious relationship with you when you start acting like you’re serious, by asking her out.

    I hope that helps! 😀

    #11775
    L0stShad0w
    Participant

    Thank you for your response.

    I understand that rejection will only help me to improve my choice in the future but anyhow, yes, I do want to drag this onto real life in the future since I know it’s not possible to continue dating online forever. But there is this little problem: We are geographically separated! She is from UK and I am from India. Although she does visit India sometimes, its not often though. I suppose I can move to UK in the future for us to move on our relationship to real life, however I am unable to do that just yet. It is not possible for me to go there in one or two years time or until I get a job there itself. She may come here before that but then again, she just may not do so.

    I want to know, what can I do to hold on to the relationship until that time comes. Yes, we would date online to get to now each other better and see if we are compatible but I think we are, since we have been basically knowing each other for two years and our relationship all these years was rather sweet. Until we move on the relationship to the next level (real life), I want to hold on to the relationship we have now. Any suggestions, tips or advices that you may have for me to do so or make it sturdier? And how do I approach her with the question of moving on to real life (since we haven’t talked about that yet) without messing it up (I’m kinda nervous 😕 ) ?

    Thank you once again. I await your kind reply.

    #13334
    April Masini
    Keymaster

    I don’t think you’re going to be able to hold onto this girl, who I believe from your post is about 17 years old, for two more years without meeting her.

    My suggestion is to meet women who are close enough to you, geographically, so that you don’t have to spend years writing them online without ever meeting in person.

    #13537
    L0stShad0w
    Participant

    Thank you so much for your answers again. Even if it’s the bitter truth, I guess I will have to move on someday. 🙁
    Anyways, I will never forget your advices and will always remember what you said.

    For now, let me brace myself for this to end. Thank you once again for taking your time to help me out and show me the way out of this.

    I appreciate it very much. 🙂

    #11313
    April Masini
    Keymaster

    I’m sorry this is a bitter truth for you. If you can take a step back and see the bigger picture, you may note that this is for the best for both of you.

    I wish you luck! 😀

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