5 years ago I met this guy when we both studied abroad. I’m from country A, he is from country B, we studied in country C. He had a girlfriend in his country, which I knew, but anyhow we started a fling. We were both very lonely and mostly talked about our lives at home. We knew it was going to end once school was out. By destiny I saw him again that summer, where we said our official goodbyes. Around a year later we found each other through the social web pages and have kept talking since. It started as a fling and was supposed to have an expiration date, but now we are both confused. He is currently married in his country. We have emailed back and forth. While I was dating I kept all the conversations PG (this was for 2 years). The thing is, we’ve fought and I have told him to forget me. This has happened a couple of times, he gives me my space and many months later re appears. The last time was 9 months later. We haven’t seen each other again in this 5 years. The thing is, he writes me to know how I am because he misses me, he calls me from his country at least 1 a month. One time he re appeard because he read in my status that I was sad. Another time he called me late at night to tell me he had not forgotten me while he was enclosed in the building where he works because there were riots in the streets. I didn’t believe him until CNN confirmed it, there had even been deaths as a consequence of the riots. He writes just to know how I am. He recently said that he cared about me more than I could imagine and that he loved me very much (not that he was in love with me), that he was my longest “relationship” (true, although I don’t even know what to name this) and that we’ve had our ups and downs like any couple. At the beginning I thought it was only about the sex and the memories (after he married he told me I was still the best sex of his life), but its been 5 years!!! There is not even a remote possibility of us seeing each other again. I’m not sure if it in fact grew into something else, or if he is just playing me. I knew the rules of the game…but it was supposed to end when the semester ended and here we are still!!! My last physical relationship ended very badly and guy from country A re appeared later, telling me all the great things he thinks of me. I am so confused, I don’t know what to think. Does he really think that or is he just playing me? I’m so afraid to trust and be seen as a fool.
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