Should i stay or go?

Should i stay or go?

My boyfriend does not want to get married (i supposed). The reason that i am not sure is because whenever we talked about getting married, he always say we will get married. But then he is not giving a specific date. This year i got so mad again for 3rd time because he failed his promise again. He said that his mom was in a critical condition and has almost died. To cut my story short, we talked and settle the problem and will get married by end of july. I told him simple ceremony would be fine. My detractor in office told that i am a mistress, my boyfriend is an old married man. I told my boyfriend what i am going through in the office and told me things to console me. I am 100% certain that he is never married because i have a document to prove. I am almost finacially dependent to him because he ask me to purchase several investments under my name but he is one paying for it. I am also helping to send my youngest brother to school. I am currently living in a very comfortable life because of him. I have a good paying job but i cant afford this comfortable life. I dont know what to do. Whenever i saw a wedding or a bride in a tv, i get mad at myself. I feel mad at him also because if he really loves me, then he will give me what i deserve. I dont talk to anybody about this pproblem. I feel so envy whenever i saw engagement proposals and weddings. I already met his family and he also met mine. I do not want to ask him for the 4th time. I feel very devasted and unwanted.
Kolin