I cant believe what shes done..

I feel I need to reach out, my heart is heavy & maybe telling people who are unbias in the situation could help.

I’ve been bestfriend with my friend Shana for over 7 years now, we are so close & tell each other everything. Shes more like a sister to me, we have so many great memories together & have helped each other through the tough times. Being a good friend to her has always been a top priority of mine, because she had always been a great friend to me.

Recently I went through a pretty tough break-up, I was with the man for about 3 years. I found out he had cheated on me with a couple different women & it truely, truely broke my heart. On top of that one of the women was pregnant with his baby. You can say it was behond rough, I fell into a depression but came out of it a trooper thanks to help from my bestfriend, my sister & my mom. I found hobbies & found making new connections with new friends helped pull me out of my funk but nothing could take away that hurt. I thought I would spend the rest of my life with this man and eventually bare his children. In one moment all of that was taken away from me. I’m sure you can understand how hard that would to go through..

In the process of all of this I confided in Shana, with everything. I cried in front of her many, many times. I told her how much I loved him, how much I missed him & how hard this was. She was really there for me, she always gave me good advice, was there when I needed her and would take me out of the house when she thought I was feeling pretty down.

Soo, this is where it starts. She had given me a password to her myspace about a year ago to check something on it for her when she couldn’t. Occasionally she would ask me to do something on her page that she couldn’t do from her cellphone (which is how she got on it usually). The other night I was trying to find someones page I needed to talk to. I went into her messages and scrolled down real quick to find it then I froze. There was my ex’s page in her inbox. I was confused for a minute and almost considered not reading it. It had already been read by her. I opened to message and read carefully. It was her telling him he almost “got her in trouble” by going to see him the other day, because her boyfriend almost found out. I kept reading.. She then expressed to him how good it felt to lay in his arms & some more stuff I dont talking about (I’m sure you know though..)

I just sat there, in shock. At first I wasn’t angry, more like confused. It felt like a bad dream, I had no idea they even knew each other. She’s been seeing him behind my back. I am so dumbfounded. Theres NO words to express how one would feel after seeing that. She betrayed me sooooo much, after everytime I told her how much I loved him she went and slept with him. It doesn’t seem like her, but obviously she did it & thats a fact. This happened only a couple of days ago & I haven’t talked to her. To be honest I’m ready to just drop her from my life, what do you even say to a person like that?

On the other hand I can’t really tell her I know about it because I DID log into her page and go through her inbox. While thats not far as bad as what shes done, its still not right. Maybe I am being too nice, I actually feel like I am. I’m not a fighter, I don’t like drama but I don’t know what to do. I honestly want to just STOP talking to her all around but I knew she would somehow get ahold of me and want to know why. I don’t really want to revisit the issue, I think they are both scum.

Maybe you have been through something similar, or maybe you just have good ideas of what to do. Any advice is good advice at this point. I’m not even sure what I’m asking, I just appreciate unbias thoughts.