What should i DO

ME AND MY BOYFRIEND HAS BEEN ON AND OFF FOR 6 YEARS NOW. DURIN THOSE 6 YEARS HE ALWAYS LIED CHEATED ON ME CAUSE ME A GREAT DEAL OF PAIN. hE WAS MY FIRST LOVE. HE WERE LIKE BONNIE AND CLYDE. WHEN WE GOT BACK TOGETHER THINGS WAS REALLY GOOD I HAD SEEN A BIG CHANGE IN HIM. THESE LAST 2 YEARS HE SLIPED BACK INTO HIS OLD WAYS.AND I WONDER WHY HE KEEPS DURIN THESE THINGS TO ME. WHEN HE NEEDED SOMEONE I WAS THERE I DONE EVERYTHIN YOU COULD POSSIBILOT THINK OF TO SATIFED HIM. i COOK HIS FOOD WAS HIS CLOTHES WAITED ON HIM HAND AND FOOT. bUT THE LAST TIME HE HURT ME I TOOK ALOT OF THOSE THINGS FROM HIM CAUSE I FELT HE DIDN’T LOVE OR RESPECT ME. i WANT IT TO WORKED BUT HIS PAST HAS CAUSES ME SO MUCH TRAUMA IN MY LIFE AND I’M STILL TRYING TO DEAL WITH IT. I KEEP THINKING HE’S UP TO IS OLD WAYS AGAIN. hE TOLD ME RECENTLY THAT HE’S LONELY I HAVE BEEN DISTANT. BUT TO ME I HAVEN’T. HE ALWAYS UP N LEAVE FIRST THING IN THE MORNING COMING BACK LATE AT NIGHT DON’T EVEN CALL TO CHECK TO SEE HOW THINGS ARE AT HOME. THEN WHEN HE COMES HOME HE WANTS ME TO BE ALL OVER HIM. i BE A LITTLE PISSED BECAUSE HE DON’T EVEN THINK ABOUT ME WHEN HE’S OUT BUT HE WANT ME TO BE ALL OVER HIM WHEN HE GETS HOME. iT’S LIKE IT’S ALWAYS ABOUT HIM AND WANT HE WANTS. hE CAUSE ME ALOT OF PAIN. iT SHOULDN’T FEEL LIKE I’M WORKING IN THE RELATIONSHIP ALONE. i CAN WORK WITH HIM IF HE STOP PUSHING ME TO DO WHAT HE WANTS. i’M DAMAGE i NEED ALL THE HELP AND LOVE THAY I CAN GET SO I WANT KEEP DRIFTING IN THE PAST EVERYTIME HE DECIDES HE WANT TO UP AND LEAVE. hE HAS THE ADVANTAGE OVER ME CAUSE I DON’T DRIVE HE DOES. fORGET TO MENTION HE LIVES WIT ME. i FEEL LIKE HE’S NOT RESPECTIN ME. I FEEL SO DEPRESSED LONELY FRUSTRATED ANGRY CONFUSED BECAUSE I’M TRYING TO WORK WIT HIM AND HE HAS AN EXCUSE FOR EVERYTHING.